Esmé and Keith met again that night, after the café and the bar had closed. They went back to his flat and made love. And again the night after. But the night after that, Esmé wasn’t working. She wished she worked every night at the café, so that she could meet Keith every night. She knew she shouldn’t monopolise him but she couldn’t help herself. He made her happy. She knew somewhere inside that he was gay. But he was so loving to her that she thought he’d changed, that he loved her so much that he’d set aside his gayness to be with her. That he was no longer interested in men.
Even though she wasn’t working, she decided she’d go down to the bar and surprise him. She normally cycled to work, but she decided to take the tram. It took her a little longer than she’d thought. As she stepped down from the tram at the stop just before The Lord Grey, she caught sight of Keith. He had his back to her. He was pressed up against another man, kissing him, his hands gripping the other bloke’s buttocks, his groin grinding against the other man’s.
She turned quickly and walked away from the bar. She didn’t want Keith to see her shame. Her humiliation was complete.
She caught the tram home and let herself in as quietly as she could. She did not want Luke to see her like this. In the privacy of her room, she took the razor and cut deeply into her arms. Stupid! she said to herself, angry, as she did it. Stupid! You knew you could never be happy. You knew that it would all be taken from you. You knew that. But still you hoped. Fool! Cretin! Idiot!
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